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Sent to a friend something i regret from the bottom of my heart was cheating on my girlfriend, i love her more than anything but i was confused, honestly confused and even considering leaving her for this girl, we kissed and were nude together, but nothing else really happened, i did touch her though, and when i was doing it i felt so bad, sick even, and i threw up after. ive never stopped regretting it, and i cant tell my girlfriend cause shes in a really bad situation right now in her life, and shes told me im the only thing keeping her together. she always says how im such a good guy and how much she loves and trusts me. and it makes me want to kill myself... i wont do that, but it makes me think about it. ive never regretted anything as much as that. as soon as that finished i told her i was done, i couldnt do it anymore, and that i felt nothing for her, that i was sorry for hurting her but i was confused. she said it was ok, then later that month called and told my girlfriend about it. she didnt believe her and told her to go to hell. my gf was talking to me about it, and i just couldnt say it was true, cause she just sounded so sure of me. i didnt want to. i wish i hadnt done it. i dont know if ill ever tell her about it, and i dont know if shell find out. if ever she does find its true, or i can tell her, ill let her leave if she wants, or ill do anything she wants me to to even try to make her happier. ill never do anything like it again, when i got home i couldnt stop crying for two days about it, i kept feeling sick, and whats worse is that i love my girlfriend, and i hurt her so much without her even knowing. i betrayed her, and nothing i can do will ever make up for it.i just wish id never done it at all, it was the worst mistake of my life. and ill spend the rest of my life trying to make up for something she never will know about. it happened last year. never do something like that, it isnt worth it, trust me. its just not, the amount of fear that theyll find out, the scare about hurting something so precious to you, the hatred you feel about letting yourself do it. nothing feels that bad.Rating:0.00
